get to know me better!

just so this post isn't photo-less. :)

i feel like you guys don't really know me that well (just like i don't know most of you as well as i'd like), and since i have nothing better to do at the moment, i'm gonna answer 100 questions that i found somewhere on the internet so you guys can get to know me better than you (probably) already do (unless you know me personally, like for example, Megan). so...let's get started!

1.) what's your favorite season?
hmm...either fall or spring!

2.) grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"it became our sign, our secret mark, our sigil:"
-Invisible, Pete Hautman

3.) who was the last person you texted?
megan, and it was about us getting together for a shoot, which, by the way, we did. ;)

4.) before you started this survey, what were you doing?
listening to set it off while checking google+.

5.) what ia the last thing you watched on TV?

6.) without looking, guess what time it is.
uhh, 6:00? ooo, i was seven minutes off. well, now you can compare that to the time that i actually get this up, ahah.

7.) now look at the clock--what time is it?
like i said, it's 6:07.

8.) with the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my music, which t the moment is The Haunting by Set it Off.

9.) do you tan or burn?
oooo baby, i burn...i burn baaaaadly.

10.) do you like fish?
not really, but i'll eat it if i have to.

11.) Mac or PC?
considering i'm typing this on my macbook, mac.

12.) do you remember your dreams?
usually i do, yes.

13.) when did you last laugh?
just now when i watched this for the billionth time: (click here to wet yourself if you're anything like me)

14.) do you remember why/what at?
well yeah, hence the link. ;)

15.) have you ever been to Canada?
no, but i really wanna go!

16.) shoes, socks, or bare feet?
socks soCKS SOCKS SOCKS i love socks man

17.) do you wear perfume?

18.) what is the last film you saw?
like, in the theaters or just the last movie i watched? because recently i rewatched the movie "Unbreakable". great movie, btw.

19.) if you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
i like it quite a lot right where i am. :)

20.) if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
ooo, my new camera, a lens or two, some dolls bc who wouldn't, sewing stuff (you can never have too many patterns, lads), doc martins, and knowing me, probably some converse.

21.) where would you live if you could live anywhere?
who came up with these questions? did they hit their head?

22.) what's your favorite band?
YOU'RE MAKING ME CHOOSE? how bout i just list my top ten at the moment? yeah? okay? okay.
(in no order)
-set it off
-all time low
-panic! at the disco
-fall out boy
-my chemical romance
-sleeping with sirens
-5 seconds of summer
-hands like houses

23.) have you ever had to have surgery?
yeah, actually, when i was 12 i had to have tongue surgery, as strange as that sounds. xD it was pretty minor, though.

24.) do you enjoy school?
sometimes. i mean, i love seeing my friends every day, but sometimes the work just gets overwhelming.

25.) what do you think of these questions so far?
they're decent so far, minus that little question repeat up there.

26.) are you a righty or a lefty?
righty! if i write with my left hand it literally looks like a visually impaired three year old wrote it.

27.) who made the last incoming call on your phone?
not sure, actually--no one ever calls me, just texts, and the last call i got was a wrong number. so therefore, i'm not sure.

28.) what is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
this picture:

...don't ask.

29.) last time you swam in a pool?
this past wednesday--we had a pool party during school for those of us in a service club/organization. (i'm in the honor society so i went)

30.) type of music you dislike most?
as much as i despise country and rap, i'm gonna go with pop--can't stand it. pop punk is fine, but play ariana grande or ed sheeran and i'll ask for you to shoot me in the head. no offense to those of you who like that kind of music, btw. just my opinion.

31.) are you listening to music right now?
i am--currently the song is Dreamer by Ghost Town.

32.) what's your favorite color?
i like gray, mint, and black. also red.

33.) is there anything you're disappointed about?
not currently, no.

34.) what was the last thing you bought?
hmm...i believe it was either Indie or the cardigan i bought from Kaitlyn's etsy shop.

35.) sun or rain?
it depends on my mood. usually, unless i wanna take photos, i actually prefer rain. not like, a downpour though, but a nice, gentle rain.

36.) would you rather go bungee jumping or sky diving?
sky diving has always been something i wanna do. :)

37.) what's your zodiac sign?

38.) what's your hair color?
blonde technically, but it's a darker shade of it with light blonde highlights. (the highlights are naturl, btw)

39.) what quote do you live by?
"growing up is giving up". it's actually lyrics, but i still find it something i live by.

40.) what's your favorite zoo animal?
oh my god i love otters i really do. xD

41.) do you have any pets?
nope, and all i've ever had were fish. xD but sadly, they have all passed...they were good fish, and they are missed...hehe

42.) what color are your eyes?

43.) do you wear any kind of jewelry 24/7?
i don't tend to wear jewelry at all, so nope.

44.) do you turn the water off when you brush your teeth?
yeah, when i remember to...oops?

45.) do you know how to change your car's oil?
um hi, i'm 14, how's it going?

46.) do you have any phobias?
not any serious phobias, but i am mildly claustrophobic.

47.) what's your lucky number?
i don't really have a "lucky" number, if you will, but i do have a favorite number--and that's seven.

48.) have you ever eaten a crayon?
no, but i think one of my brothers have.

49.) can you solve a Rubix cube?
hahaha, no, i'm horrible at those. xD

50.) what are you listening to right now?
Wolf in Sheep's Clothing by Set it Off (aka my current favorite song) O.o

51.) do you like Marmit?
i've never heard of it.

52.) do you wear the hood on hoodies?
not unless it's cold and i don't have a beanie with me.

53.) is the glass half empty or half full?
half full. *flashes thumbs up*

54.) what's the farthest away place you've been?

55.) do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
all the time, it bother me when i don't. xD

56.) what's your favorite radio station?
i don't typically listen to the radio just because i'm not a fan of any of the stations i get.

57.) are you allergic to anything?

58.) were you named after anyone?
no, i wasn't.

59.) do you wear glasses/contacts?
yep, i love my glasses. ^_^

60.) have you ever walked out of a movie theater before the film was over?
no, even if the movie sucked, i wouldn't wanna waste the money i spent on the ticket and just leave.

61.) what's your least favorite school subject?
probably math.

62.) put your itunes library on shuffle. what song comes up?
Oh, Calamity! by All Time Low. :)

63.) do you wear jeans or sweatpants more?

64.) where in the world would you like to travel?
i'd really like to visit australia (anywhere in it would be great), london, and canada (again, anywhere in it would be fab).

65.) are you traveling anywhere soon?
not really, no.

66.) have you ever built an igloo?
no, but i remember when i was younger, i genuinely tried (and failed).

67.) best thing at starbucks?
idk i just like coffee.

68.) do you like watching scary movies?
omg yes i love horror movies!

69.) what's the best thing about school?
friends and band. :)

70.) what were you doing at midnight last night?
spamming people with pictures from my school's formal we went to last night (very fun, btw).

71.) what's under your bed?

72.) how do you really feel about what you're doing right now?
i can't believe it;s taken me over an hour and a half to get just past halfway through this thing.

73.) think fast, what do you like right now?
set it off--they've been my everything these past few hours it's ridiculous. i've been listening to them nonstop all day.

74.) are you sarcastic?
all the time mate.

75.) what time do you get up?
depends on what day it is. like, on a school day i get up at 5 but on weekends i wake up anywhere from 10-1.

76.) what was the name of your first pet?
bluebird the fish. then bluebird #2, sapphire, smokey, and big-eyed guy (my favorite). and then there was eeny, meeny, miney, moe, and stripey, but they were family fish...

77.) what color are your sheets?
white with gray-blue diamonds.

78.) how are you feeling right now?
tired yet inspired to go take photos.

79.) what was your favorite food as a child?
mashed potatoes. yum.

80.) how are you feeling right now?
yep okay you hit your head.

81.) can you whistle?

82.) do you drink soda?
yeah, probably more often than i should.

83.) have you read the harry potter series?
but of course i have. i have harry's wand in my room man.

84.) can you drive a stick shift?
uh, no.

85.) what's your favorite candle scent?
i like anything either cinnamon or vanilla scented. :)

86.) have your pants ever fallen down in public?
thankfully, no. belts are my best friend.

87.) do you sing in the shower?

88.) can you speak another language?
un peu de francais. (a little of french. not fluently, but i could probably hold somewhat of a conversation in french)

89.) can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?
yep, i can.

90.) dogs or cats?
dogs, by far.

91.) do you make wishes at 11:11?
i used to when i was little, but gave up when i realized that they didn't come true. sad thing, really.

92.) what's your favorite type of chapstick?
tbh i just like the original flavor of chapstick brand chapstick...

93.) which came first--the chicken or the egg?
hmm...the egg? no, the chicken. wait, scratch that--i have no idea.

94.) what are you reading now?
nothing currently. just finished godless by pete hautman though. only read it because i had to for school. it was wicked confusing.

95.) can you touch your nose with your tongue?

96.) can you walk in heels?
considering i've never worn heels before (you're talking to the girl that wore converse to her formal dance), i am not quite sure.

97.) how many rings before you answer the phone?
however many it takes for me to get to the phone.

98.) any new and exciting things you'd like to share?
besides indie coming soon and marching band being amazing, not really. :)

99.) what is most important in life?
knowing who you are and not being afraid to be yourself.

100.) what inspires you?
music. if it weren't for music, i'd be the most vanilla person out there, along with the shiest, most timid, most boring person.

whelp, looks like that's it! i hope maybe that let you get to know a little more about me, even though some of those were pretty random and/or lame. i encourage you guys to answer some of these in the comments to let me get to know you better, if you want! i'd love that.

thanks for reading, and have a great night! i plan to have an OOTD post up tomorrow. :)



teenagers {photo shoot}

They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They're gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They're gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare the living sh*t out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You're never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you're troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did

They said all teenagers scare the living sh*t out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

Ohhh yeah!

They said all teenagers scare the living sh*t out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

All together now!

Teenagers scare the living sh*t out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

Teenagers scare the living sh*t out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me.


poor jules felt scared to look at herself in her getup for this shoot.

originally i was gonna take photos of three girls dressed as different teenage stereotypes but then i got lazy and wanted to start practicing my trumpet (i have to memorize two really hard songs by June 24 for marching band next year and i really don't wanna screw them up). so instead you get julie in some dark color and ripped clothing pieces. ;)

the song is Teenagers by My Chemical Romance. :)

see ya soon!



some girls freak me out {photo shoot}

have you heard about the new girl
on the block
in her black out benz?

with her old school kicks
and her hipster friends
got a peace sign in hand.

she's everything you want
and all you hated,
well dressed and overrated.

some girls freak me out.

well, daddy's little girl knows how to party.
she's singing "pour some sugar on me".
she's well versed in the new pop culture,
always rolls with a camera by her side.

well, some girls freak me out.

she's the sweetest,
the sweetest thing but-
i know she's no good for me...


today Emerson decided to introduce Chrissa here to punk rock. she put together an outfit and played some songs by All Time Low and The Summer Set. Chrissa really took a liking to The Summer Set's song Girls Freak Me Out, so Emery escorted her outside with me where i shot a (rather small) photo shoot.

Em is quite proud of what she did to Chrissa today, and i'm quite proud of these photos. ;) i felt like crap today but i really wanted to take some photos of Chris, plus i got to sew like, all day, so that made my day pretty good after all. some honest feedback on these photos would make it even better though. ;);) see ya soon!


Birthday Haul 2015 (part 1)

hey guys!

since most of you liked the idea of a birthday haul, I decided to go ahead and make one. however, I have not received everything (like for example, Indie was paid for with money from my parents and some from my grandparents, but she won't be here for at least another week), so I decided that instead of making you guys wait like, two extra weeks, I'd just make two separate parts.

DISCLAIMER THAT LITERALLY EVERYONE PUTS IN HAUL TYPE POSTS AND/OR VIDEOS: I am in no way trying to brag or show off what I have received. I am ridiculously thankful for everything I have gotten, so no hate please. :)

(an overview of everything so far)

from my parents I received $40 (that I put towards Indie) and white Converse high tops. plus the worlds greatest card. ;)

from my good friend that you all knew as Cassie, I got a painting she made, and a shirt is on the way (it's an Irwin 94 shirt *cries*)

from my grandparents on my mom's side I got a pair of gray Vans and $60 (also put towards Indie).

from my grandparents on my dad's side I received some jelly beans, new socks, and $100.

I also got $20 from my great I grandparents, which I used to buy something from Kaitlyn's new Etsy shop. :)
(not pictured)

...and that's all for this post! I'll try to take some new photos today and get those up tomorrow. I hope you're all enjoying your long weekends! ;)



all i ever wanted was *ahem* INDIE

it's hard to be
what you need
through a static screen.

been trying to speak
for weeks
and weeks.

open my mouth,
all that comes out
is white noise and
incomprehensible sound

and all you ever do
is turn me


i'm watching,
i'm waiting,
i'm aching,

i'm breathing,
i'm screaming,
can you hear me?
i'm screaming

for you.


for those of you who are confused, the title comes from the lyrics of Me Without You by ATL, it originally goes "all i ever wanted was a part of you that i couldn't break" but all i want rn is my new doll so that happened.

nothing like a little bit of PVRIS lyrics to turn up the drama factor. sorry this photo is similar to the last--lighting has been absolute crap lately so i haven't been able to shoot anything new.

in other news, i just bought a maroon cardigan from kaitlyn's new etsy shop and cannot wait until it arrives! ^_^ it's amazing...you guys need to check it out. her shop name is Kaitlyn'sDollCloset and it's filled with lovely items. :)

in other news, i just bought a maroon cardigan from kaitlyn's new etsy shop and cannot wait until it arrives! ^_^ it's amazing...you guys need to check it out. her shop name is Kaitlyn'sDollCloset and it's filled with lovely items. :)

it will probably arrive close to the arrival of my new girl. wanna know her name?


okay, but you're only getting her first and middle name (mainly because her last name is still up in the air). ;)

her name is Indigo Leah, Indie for short, Leah after my very good friend Leah (from ToDOLLy Awesome). ;)

i love her already and i've still got a week left ahh.

oh yeah and she came from zulilly with an extra outfit that i think Jade will enjoy. ;)

i'm so bad at keeping secrets omfg.



Blessing in Disguise Award

hello and welcome to my post for this lovely award created by a dear friend of mine. ^_^
clearly, she's so dear that i actually made a post within the same month that she nominated me.
that's a first.

anyways, let's get right into it!


1. Copy these rules and the picture above
2. Answer these questions:
                - Who/ What is your biggest inspiration?
                - What is one song that describes you?
                - Is there a message you want to give your followers/readers? If so, what is it?
3. List and explain one goal you have for your life (this can be short-term or long-term)
4. Think of at least three questions to ask your nominee.
5. Nominate at least one other person and explain why you nominated them. What makes them a blessing in disguise?

Questions (and Answers):
1.) Who/what is your biggest inspiration?
ooo, this is a toughy...regarding photography, i absolutely adore the photos of Sydney (fka 5hensandahowardbird) and Karalee (KaraleeLS). always have, always will. as for an inspiration overall? hmm...i really look up to Hayley Williams because she's so talented and gorgeous and confident and...and...well, let's just say that i see her as an excellent role model. :)

2.) What is one dong that describes you?
most definitely Rejects by 5 Seconds of Summer because, well, i consider myself a reject and that song is just so happy and funny and true and relatable and it's basically the story of my life.

3.) Is there a message you want to give your readers/followers? If so, what is it?
if my readers take anything away from this blog, i want them to know that they can always be themselves and that they shouldn't ever worry about what others think of them. i mean, look at me! i'm a crazy little prick but i've come to embrace that.

4.) What is your favorite thing to do in the summer?
swim. :)

5.) What is your favorite memory?
i could never choose a favorite memory out of everything, but my favorite doll related memory is when Anna basilmentos emailed me back. it was valentine's day 2014, or was it '13? not sure. but i had finally scraped up the courage to email her with an attached photo of a drawing i had made of her doll Gabby, and she responded later that afternoon with such a sweet message, and i honestly started crying. i was holding ali close and reading an email that my inspiration for this blog had sent to me, had taken the time out of her day to put together, and realized that i couldn't be happier as long as i was in this community.

very happy day for me. if you ever find cassie floating around on the internet do feel free to ask her about how hysterical i was. ;)

6.) What are your current three favorite songs?
remembering sunday by all time low
rejects by 5sos
dreaming out loud by we are the in crowd

all lovely songs that i highly reccomend. :)

and now for the sweetheart that i nominate:

Leah: Leah, you are such a sweet and funny girl, and talking to you always brightens my day. i know i can talk to you about anything (including but not limited to mattie, my doll plans, and whatever tf is on my mind at any given moment...), and i love you like a sister. ♥

whelp, that's all for today...

she's a myag and is super cute. ^_^




(in which i return)

i don't mean to be a bother,
but have you seen this girl?


HOLY BALLS. well hi there, it's been a while, hasn't it? man, have i been BUSY. i owe you guys an apology, plus list of people moving onto the next round of AGPC, and i promise you i will get that up very soon. i also owe you guys some real photography. oh yeah, that reminds me...

i've kinda been changing my photography habits over the past few weeks--i want my photos to tell a story. i'm tired of meaningless head shots of nothing but emery (because let's face it--i play favorites with my girls and em always seems to get the most camera time) and some green bokeh in the background. now don't get me wrong, i love emery and i love bokeh, but they're just plain old boring. i want my photos to be something i can call my own, so therefore i have been experimenting. the above photo is one of the results. :) thoughts? i personally find it easier to set up a scene and take a small amount of photos as opposed to my usual "go outside and take a gazillion photos that all seem to look the same" routine, which i really just haven't had time for lately. but don't worry, my school lets out on june 10, so then we'll go back to those almost daily posts and new photos all the time and...well, you get the point. anyways.

my birthday's on wednesday--do you guys want a post on what i got like i did for christmas? if so, do you want just doll stuff or human things, too? want a photo story for kanani's birthday (which was today :P)? want photo shoots? who of? please let me know and i will try to cater to your desires. ;) 

by the way, i gave ali freckles and let me tell you--she is such a cutie. O.o

have a lovely night you guys. love you! ♥



let's chat


i hate being busy i really do.

i also hate people but yanno.


*sigh* well, it's been a long day and all i really wanna do is collapse in bed and listen to 5sos and all time low until a fall asleep, but instead i made a video, somehow threw together  a lame excuse for a post over on SBATD, and decided to post again on here because i love you guys.

since i'm so bored, i want to talk to you guys. in the comments, ask me anything--anything--and i'll answer, think of it as an unofficial q&a. i just wanna talk to you guys since it feels like we haven't done that in a long long time.

QOTD: do you ever have one of those days when you're just totally done with people yet still want to talk?

AOTD: all the time ladies. (and gentlemen, if there are any here)

see ya in the comments? maybe? hopefully.



AGPC Voting: Round Four



noun: friendship

Something that should never, ever end.



Elizabeth loves to take pictures with her friends. :)


Waverly loves taking pictures of and with her friends. Today she was taking pictures of her best friend Jay!

Polka Dot Bee

Rebecca and Mia love their secret hiding space, just enough room for both of them. Hiking in nature while talking every week is the perfect pastime for the two sisters, something they immensely enjoy.


Lanie and her friends love to play hopscotch, and while they take turns playing, they love to cheer each other on! 


Felcity and her good friend, Cora, love nature, and tree climbing in particular! ;)


Evelyn loves her lamb, who is her best friend.


vote for as many or as little as you like--
just don't vote for more than 7 ;)


woo a trophy--proof that i was actually doing something
yay band

sorry i haven't been posting that much

i blame band

excuses excuses