30.7.15

{stained glass eyes and colorful tears}


i changed your mind
and ended up here
through stained glass eyes
and colorful tears.

fine,
maybe i'll pretend right now,
but i swear to god
i'm gonna change the world.
and i promise you,
someday we'll tell ourselves—
"oh my god, this is paradise."

~

i really need to go outside and get a proper shoot done. maybe if it weren't like a gazillion freaking degrees out and wicked humid everyday i would. *coughcough* @weather

on a separate note, i really wanna restart my blog, only keeping the posts i want to keep. but on the other hand, i'd miss seeing all my old posts, despite how cringe-worthy they are. *cringes just thinking about it*

anyways, how are you guys? good i hope. :) i'm feeling chatty again, so if you want to talk feel free to email me. ;) thanks for being great, lads. <3

-maddie

p.s. i just want to give a shout-out to my good friend j over at water under the bridge, for it's her birthday today. ;) 

26.7.15

{she lives in a fairytale}


she lives in a fairytale,
somewhere too far for us to find.
forgotten the taste and smell
of a world that she left behind.

it's all about the exposure of the lens, i told her--
the angles were all wrong,
now she's ripping wings off of butterflies.

keep your feet on the ground
when your head's in the clouds.

~

tbh i really love this.

i'm gonna bring back question of the day just because--so here goes.

qotd: what's your current favorite song?
aotd: at the moment i'm once again loving (probably all time favorite song like ever) brick by boring brick, by the one and only paramore.

hope you all had a fabulous weekend. don't forget to smile. ^-^

-maddie

24.7.15

{have you seen this girl?}






forgive me, i'm trying to find
my calling, i'm calling at night.
i don't mean to be a bother but
have you seen this girl?

she's been running through my dreams,
and it's driving me crazy it seems...

~
i always get so sad when i see someone trying to hide the fact that they like dolls from their friends and/or peers. going so far as to deleting all their doll photos saved on their phone or computer, shoving their dolls under their bed when friends come over, etc. there's honestly nothing we should worry about regarding others' opinions on our hobby. personally, none of my friends or peers have a problem with it. even my guy friends are cool about it. anyways, not sure why i felt like sharing this, it's just something i find sad and, quite frankly, unnecessary. you lads should be proud of what you do, because you all produce lovely work, and if someone has a problem with you and your dolls, they aren't worth your time. <3

-maddie

21.7.15

nine in the afternoon {a photo shoot}













'cause it's nine in the afternoon,
and your eyes are the size of the moon.
you could 'cause you can so you do,
we're feeling so good
just the way that do
when it's nine in the afternoon.

~

i know the lyrics are pretty irrelevant but i don't like posting a shoot without some lyrics.
i'm weird i know.
but anyways can we talk about archer's outfit bc seriously.
it's so cUTE I'M DYING.

~

dear ag community,
a lot of us say that you guys are fake. when most people say that, they're talking about the happy lads that use caps and exclamation points. well, you know what? when i say that a lot of ag bloggers (and others) are fake, i don't only mean that, because i know for a fact that there are a decent number of you who are genuinely sweet, happy people that are honestly making the world a better, brighter place. tbh the people with the "fake" smiles and happiness don't bother me that much at all, it's the people that will suddenly start acting differently, seemingly to appeal to a group or individual on here. that annoys the living shit out of me (pardon my french). don't think for a second that i'm gonna like you better if you like the same bands i do. don't think that if you start writing without caps that i'm gonna love you more than life itself. don't think that swearing a few times is gonna make me bow down to you. i love you guys for who you are. now this obviously isn't just happening to me specifically, and it's not just the whole "liking bands" deal. all over the place there are people doing things and changing themselves to appeal to others. just be yourself, p l e a s e. i don't care if you're ten and i'm fourteen, i don't care if you're thirty and i'm fourteen, if you're you and aren't totally prickish, i'm gonna like you. but being someone that i know you're not? i'm just gonna get annoyed and fed up. take this message and do with it what you will, at this point i don't care if you disagree. if you do, actually, let me know! as long as you have reasons behind what you believe, i'm chill. we can discuss it, have a nice conversation, see the different sides. i'm down for that. hell, you can yell at me in the comments if you want. accuse me of things. i'm kind of looking forward to hearing peoples' thoughts. i've already poked the ag community with a stick numerous times, you all know where i stand in things, so tell me--where are you? are you yourself? why? why not? have you ever felt like you wanted to change yourself on here to appeal to others? really, i want to know. i don't just want this message to you to sound like me trying to smother your opinions with mine. we're all equal here, in my eyes. speak up, and you shall be heard.

regards,
maddie

15.7.15

breathe in, breathe out {a photo shoot}


song by set it off.
lyric shoots brought to us by adi.

~


breathe in,


breathe out.


breathe in,


breathe out.


board up your windows,
but i'm telling you
that is not gonna do a thing.
it always finds you,
but it all depends
on how you battle with the pressure.
you take a left,
and it's standing in the way.
you try to shake it off
but it seems to want to stay.
your poker face could make them melt,
just sit back and deal with the hand you're dealt


face facts, it won't be easy this time.
sticks like a tack in the back of my mind.
hurts so deep when i think too much,
and breathing gets harder.


take a look at me,
from one side i seem to be
so calm, so cool, collected,
and on the other side i'm melting down.


stop-
and think about it.
you only have one life.
so why mistake it
for something negative?
i am my own worst enemy,
paranoid, can't avoid this killing spree.
i am a victim,
but i choose to be.
my favorite weapon lies behind my teeth.
i strive to solve myself,
so chin up and deal with the hand you're dealt


face facts, it won't be easy this time.
sticks like a tack in the back of my mind.
hurts so deep when i think too much,
and breathing gets harder.


take a look at me,
from one side i seem to be
so calm, so cool, collected,
and on the other side i'm melting down.
until then, i will choose to display
all these feeling that i hate.
you think you know me but you don't,
so look who's laughing now.


ladies and gentlemen!
boys and girls!
lend me your eyes and ears--
i have something to tell you.
so listen up
right
now.


don't you dare
close it off,
i can never get enough.
when they close cold eyes
is when i will give it up.
don't you dare
close it off,
i can never get enough,
get enough.


take a look at me,
from one side i seem to be
so calm, so cool, collected,
and on the other side i'm melting down.
until then,
i will choose to display
all these feelings that i hate.
you think you know me but you don't.


take a look at me,
from one side i seem to be
so calm, so cool, collected
and on the other side i'm melting down.


until then,
i will choose to display
all these feelings that i hate.
you think you know me but you don't,
so


look who's laughing now.

~

not gonna lie, i'm really proud of this. in a way. i highly recommend you listen to the actual song for this one, just because it's a really great piece of music and is very well done. it's full of emotion--anger, sadness, excitement--and is by far one of my favorite songs. and hey! it's clean! so for all you children who don't like swearing, here's a song that i like that you might too! whaddaya know.

anyways, i was gonna wait to post this until tomorrow or something but i got too excited and had to get it up as soon as i could. ;) hope you enjoyed!

-maddie

14.7.15

emerson briar {a photo shoot}


















it goes to show,
i hope that you know that you are
what my dreams are made of.

~
i made emery a new shirt today. ^-^ i really like it.

i also like these pictures--at first i was like "nope, trash them, they're too dark" but then i realized that they capture emerson perfectly and so of course now i like them.

heheh...

emerson is just so perfect. i love her more than i ever thought i could love a doll.

in other news, i had a dream last night that i went to the agp and bought grace. not sure why. i don;t even like grace. also not sure why i shared that...xD oh well. i feel like talking today. if you feel like talking, too, then feel free to email me so we can chat about anything and everything. i'm up to it if you are. ;)

-maddie