15.5.16

metanoia.


metanoia
(n.)
the journey of changing one's mind, heart, self, or way of life.


please read the entire thing. thank you x

on new year's eve, i sat there and thought about dollsonmymind. i thought about all the things i accomplished and all the things i fucked up. i knew that 2016 would most likely be the end of this blog. i knew that sooner or later people would stop caring, that i would find another platform to express my love for dolls and photography on.

five months later, i look back on that night and think, "i was right."

i've been posting less and less, i hardly get any comments--the blogging community is dying out, and that makes me sad.

i need to face the obvious, the thing that everyone can see but i tried to ignore.

my time is up. i should be gone by now. my posts have no effect on anyone or anything, the only reason anyone even looked at my blog this past month was most likely because of my giveaway.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that an era has ended, an era full of lovely doll bloggers that accepted me into their community. this was one of the greatest experiences of my life, and each and every one of you has impacted me in ways i cannot explain.

metanoia, i call it. metanoia is what these past two years have been for me, and i'm thankful for that.

i'm currently working on a stop motion short film that references the journey we've been on together, and i expect it to be done sometime in june. when it is complete, i'll post it on here, and after that...i think i'll be done.

in the meantime, i'll try to post so that those of you who still check in have something to look at. as you may know, my birthday is this friday, the twentieth, and shortly after that it will be the one year anniversary of bringing indie and archer into the crew. i could try to do a photo story or two if you'd like, or maybe i could throw together some tutorials? whatever you guys wan to see, just let me know. i want to go out on a high note, and that high note involves making sure you all are happy. :3

well, i think that concludes everything i wanted to say today. thanks so much for reading, my lovely flamingos, and i hope that whatever you all end up doing, it's something you love. <3

xo maddie

22 comments:

  1. Annie15.5.16

    I have been reading your blog since June 2014 and so much has changed....with you and with the entire blogging community.

    I would like some photo stories, those are always some of my favorites. :)

    -Annie

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    1. indeed it has...

      thank you for the suggestions love. ^-^

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  2. I'll be so sad to see DOMM go! I've always really enjoyed your blog, especially the awesome photography and personality you've infused into it. But if this is what you think is the best decision, go for it. Wishing you all the best <3

    Ellie | On the Other Side of Reality

    P.S. - Will you still be blogging at Social Casualty?

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    1. aw, thanks ellie, i'm going to miss this place as well, but i'll still be active on my youtube channel & instagram!! and yes, i will still be posting on social casualty. perhaps i'll drop a post on here every few months to check in on everyone as well, like in summer or around the winter holidays. :3

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  3. I understand what you're talking about too. It'll still be sad to see you go. I've always really liked your blog and thought that you really put your heart and soul into it. Happy Birthday by the way!
    - Zoë

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    1. i'm glad you understand zoë, it means a lot, as well as all the support you've given me since the beginning when this community was just beginning to bud. :3 thanks so much for the birthday wishes!!

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  4. Maddie , I'm not a very emotional person. I'm literally tearing up now. I want to beg you not to leave. Please , please don't go . Please. I understand , you think it's your time to go. But I will miss your stunning photography and your beautiful writing. I just want you to know that your posts have an effect on every single person who reads them. I want you to know that as long as you keep posting , I will keep reading . Gee , I'm going to miss you so much. I'll be your flamingo forever <3
    ~ Thalia

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    1. aw thalia. :3 i'll still be around if you ever want to talk, and as i stated above in my reply to ellie, i will most likely pop in every couple of months to say hello & update you all. thank you so, so much for all the kind words, it truly means the world to me. <3

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  5. Maddie, your blog is one of my favorite blogs to read, I love your photography and entertaining photostories. But if you think this is best for you, then I wish you the best of luck, and happy birthday! I think that you should post whatever inspires you, I tend to do that and I love my blog because of it. Thank you so much for such an awesome blog, with unique and real dolls. I hope you don't leave the blogging community totally, and still read blogs. Thank you again, I'm going to miss you a lot!

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    1. i'll definitely still be here reading blogs & such, as well as continuing to be active on my youtube channel & instagram! ^-^ thank you so much for the sweet comment, it really made my day and i appreciate it very much. <3 take care, i'll see you around!

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  6. You're definitely not the only one who's noticed the change in the blogging community. After all the drama went down everywhere the past few months, everything just died down and people left, it's definitely not the same. It sucks, but I guess I should've seen this coming.
    I really hate to see you go, especially since you were always there since the beginning of my own blogging journey and your comments always meant so much to me, but I hope you're able to find a new space for yourself that you'll be happiest in--you definitely deserve it. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY, I hope you have a wonderful day and that it's the very best! <3
    Thanks for all you did in the little blogging world, I'll really miss you, but in the meantime I'll be looking forward to your stop motion. :] I really hope you get to do something you love too, good luck. <3

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    1. yeah, i really miss the "old days" (which were actually just a year ago lmao time flies), but i think we all saw the downfall of this community coming.
      you always left the sweetest comments and encouraged me to no extent, making this journey an incredible one. ♥ i appreciate everything you've done during our time here, and i thank you with all my heart for the incredibly kind words. i'll definitely still keep up with your blog and all. ;)
      and thank you for the birthday wishes!! it really means a ton. ^-^ xo

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  7. No! You can't leave!!!
    Maddie,your posts are so inspiring, and we all love them. However, I understand. Don't blog for us. Blog for YOU. And even if that means only three posts a year, I'll come back and read them.

    Btw, did I tell you that we have the same birthday? I hope your day is very special and happy. :)

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    1. i'll still drop in to say hello & check in on you all on occasion throughout the year, plus i'll still be on instagram & youtube. ^-^ thanks so much for all the support love!!

      i wish the very same & more for you! ♥

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  8. Maddie,

    I know that some of this could be my fault, with the lyric shoots, the emails, all that crap, but I totally understand. Do what you want, post what you want, whatever will make you happy, all right? Your posts have had a big impact on me, and they still do. I'm trying not to really cry over this post right now, but tears are literally flying down my cheeks right now.

    And happy early birthday. :) If you were wondering (which you probably weren't), I'm still doing that birthday post for you, it's just going to be on my WordPress blog (lostinmyownworldblog.wordpress.com) so yeah.

    ~Izzy

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    1. no no no, this isn't me leaving because i feel unwelcome, this is me leaving because my time is up and my "generation" of bloggers, if you will, has left and i just feel a little lonely. living in the past, i guess you could say. so don't apologize, not for this, because this was my own decision & i'll still be popping in here and there to say hello. ^-^ it means a lot to hear my posts have impacted someone. :3

      thank you!

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  9. yo, first off, happy birthday for tomorrow :)
    secondly, I've been feeling that way a lot, too. Times have changed since 2014, and blogging isn't the same anymore, so I'm glad I'm not the only one thinking this. (also one of the reasons why I've fallen off the face of the earth...)
    I'll miss DOMM a lot, and your gorgeous photos, but finishing posting is the best thing for you, so do what you like. (god knows how many freaking times I've said that to you xD)
    Charlie/Charlotte

    (also social casualty's on permission only, is everything okay? just thought I'd ask in case.)

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  10. I am so very sorry to hear this. My own blog has been sufering lately do to more responsibilities heaped on my shoulders elsewhere. I haven't been able to compose as I'd like and really haven't kept up with reading or commenting.

    Your blog does inspire. I have learned a great deal from you and you post style. Please know that you do make a difference and Dolls on My Mind is a blog I always look forward to reading.

    Quite a few of my favorites have been less prominent lately due to schedules and activities. It is sad. You have a unique voice among the community. May it stay strong and unique in all areas of your life.

    <3
    ~Xyra

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  11. YO HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU FIEND. *slaps a birthday hat on your head and showers confetti* I hope you have a fabulous year!

    Ellie | The Dolls of 221B

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  12. maddie, i know you probably don't know anything about me, but i've been looking at domm ever since you started. i feel really sad seeing you go, as for you've made such a huge impact on me, inspiring me to start my blog. i'm going to miss domm so much like you have no idea, but i understand, it's your decision. just remember that if you just ever miss us, come back, alright? the blogging comm's going to be losing someone absolutely outstanding.

    xx alex

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  13. first, happy late birthday lovely "twin" of mine. :)
    also, in regards to you leaving: it's your choice, but I want you to know that you have 100% made an influence on me and many others. your blog has inspired me from the beginning. you weren't afraid to be who you really were online, and I really admire that about you. hopefully you'll still post your gorgeous pictures somewhere else where we can enjoy them. I'll miss your posts here, and please come back if you want to, because we'll all miss you.

    xx charlotte

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  14. Anonymous30.5.16

    Maddie:

    Thank you for being an inspiration and being one of my first online friends. Your blog will always hold a special place in my heart, and I thank you for all you have done for the blogging community.

    Toodles,
    Dawn, who used to be from AGForEveryone

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